Miracles

Christmas is often the Season for miracles.  We hear about those miracles and yet they rarely touch our lives. We hear about them and we think that they are good things and we move on. And yet, these miracles mean far more than we even begin to be aware of. How do I know this? Well, this season, I have been a recipient of more miracles than I knew existed. I will admit, it's not an easy year for me. Why? Well, shortly after my x and I split, for reasons that I still remain confident were the right choices, my x traded me in. He found and pursued someone else and they have been together ever since. Now some may say that it's what I deserve, after all I chose to initiate the split. that may be as that may be, it doesn't really matter at this point...the thing is, what I have always wanted, he has attained. Reasons for that remain unknown to me.....again a moot point...however, the reality is, my current situation is one of being alone.

Were I to look upon my choices, I know that they were important and the correct choices for me and my children., However, as we all know there are repercussions for every one of our choices, I am currently living those repercussions. I don't regret my choices but I hate my circumstances.

However, this year, as a result of those choices, I have been left in a position where miracles (at least in my estimation) are far more a reality in my life than they have ever been before. I have witnessed the kindness of strangers that has left me in tears. I have sat in the presence of strangers and cried for the compassion that they have exhibited upon me. I have also been the recipient of fully realizing the depth of the care of friends of mine. Christmas is a tumultuous time when you are a single mom, and tonight, I had the privilege of feeling cared for by a friend, whom I consider dear. For him, I am sure it was nothing, for me his one small act of kindness touched my heart in a way I do not have the words to adequately express. Thank you, more than you can fathom.

I am not the only one this season to witness these miracles. There are a few of my close friends that I know are expreiencing miracles this year. Things they did not foresee as being possible. Christmas....the time of miracles........too bad they couldn't last the whole year through.......