2010

So 2010 is upon us. Jamie asked me how to say it, is it twenty-ten or two thousand ten....ah the concerns when we are 7. The holidays have been a difficult time for me. I have many dreams I hold close to my heart. Many of them have been held there for a long time. Some as young as 11, some even further back and likely from as young as 5. So here I sit in 2010 and assess. Where am I in relation to my dreams.

Well lets see...I have three kids, that's one of my dreams...so check. However, let me tell you I certainly did not forsee doing this by myself. When I envisioned myself with children, there was always a loving and adoring husband in that picture. And...wait for it....*looks around living room*...nope he still isn't here ( I had to check thinking he might have dropped in as I started this blog).  So that is a bit of a struggle. Now for all my life, I have been the type of person, who has few but deep friendships so this being alone thing bites. Now, when I separated, I figured I would be with someone by now. But I still sit and still do this by myself, something I am less than impressed with that I have taken up with God on a number of occasions. In fact since New Years Eve, He and I have been in an intense battle about it. He won. Go figure. Although it brought peace for the moment, I can feel that wearing thin already.

So, other dreams, well my MA. I'm on the road to that. Its been a hard long road and its wearing thin as well. This whole single mom, working part time thing is getting really old. The hope is that by the end of this year I will hold my MA diploma in my hand.

I have held a few business ideas in my heart since I was 11. I was propelled into motion over them last April and unfortunately am not much further than I was then. I have held some meetings, I have got a buisness plan started but being unsure what to do and where to go has left me floundering.

And then I started doing some reading over the weekend. I have stomach flu, not much more that I can do. And some of what I have been reading is centered around your dreams. The question went something like this. You pick up a lamp and a genie pops out of it. This genie has ensured that for the next three months, your job is done to perfection, your children are well cared for and raised, your mortgage and bills are paid, essentially every responsibility you ever have has been lifted off of your shoulders with the surety that it will be taken care of to perfection. What would you do with your 3 months. There was one caveat. You have to ensure that you do at least one thing you have never done before. So what would you do?

This gave me pause to think. For apart from some travelling etc, I think I would want to devote my time to building that business I spoke of earlier. The challenge was this, can you find one hour a week to do one of those things on your list. Or can you start to set aside some money in order to take that trip wanted. The moral: take control of 2010 and refuse to let it control you.

So what is on your list? What can you choose to do over the coming year. It's time to live rather than survive.......