Hello. My name is Kristie and I.....

Hi My name is Kristie and I am a senser-feeler aka a burden bearer. Let me explain. I pick up other people's stuff. I sense and feel what other people are struggling with and I carry it as my own. And I don't always know when or how I do this. But I do. It's very useful and it sucks. But it's all in the handling of it. But that first means you have to be aware of it. And that makese it hard. Take for instance my home. I can leave my home and be in a glorious mood. I can have a great day and be full of life and zest but when I return to my home, my mood drastically changes and I get pissy and grumpy and I can get head-achy and just plain miserable. The thing is nothing has caused it that I can tag. So there, I burden beared. My home though right? What is in my home that I would pick up? Well I think there are a few things. My kids also burden bear and so when they come home from their dads, its stuff that they could have picked up there, or it could be residual stuff from the prior tenants. The previous tenant was a prostitute who saw around 20 men a day. Lot of residual crap can remain in this house from her and her clients. Prior to that the house was a grow op. Again, lots of stuff there. At some point, there was someone in here that worked with mental illness, could be stuff there. So theoretically in this house alone there are may opportunities for yuck to be in here that I am picking up.

So I have a few options which I need to become disciplined in doing. And there's the key, at this point, its a discipline, its sacrifice to do any of the things that I know I should do. I have no interest in doing them, I have no desire. I want to lay down and not do.

One of the spiritual principles is that thanksgiving and praise are the gateway. In other words, when we praise and give thanks, it releases something in the kingdom. "But I don't want to!" I know I sound like a kid.....but I don't. It's like i'm frozen in this inability to. And therein lies the sacrifice, my spirit is not oriented to praising right now. I feel low and pissy and grumpy and I plain don't want to. But for there to be a release of blessings and abundance the entrance gate is praise and thanksgiving.

God knows. He understands that as humans we don't always WANT to praise, and that our spirits don't always FEEL like praising. In face, my spirit right now feels very burdened and very heavy and it feels very hard to do. And that is the sacrifice that is honourable and pleasing to
God.

So about the rest of the stuff? About the potentiality that there is residual crap that resides in this house that I pick up on? Praying through the house, annointing the doors and windows and washing off prayers should take care of that. Again, I don't want to, I have no energy to and I just want to lie and waste my day away. I am completely sucked of energy. But I know that if I start with the praise and thanksgiving, the strength for the rest will come. In fact, in talking about praising, there is a small lift in my spirit so now to be disciplined....

My nameis Kristie and I am a burden bearer........