Forgiveness

Well, last night a new facet of forgiveness was revealed to me. I ended up reconnecting with an elementary schoolmate. We went our to catch up last night. However, this schoolmate was atrocious to me. He was merciless in his teasing and hounding me. And it really was somewhat unexplainable because there seemed to be nothing that I did to deserve it except be alive. I was the quiet girl who had her couple of friends and I stuck with them or kept to myself. I wasn['t obbnoxious in class, I wasn't specifically targeted. And that was where my friend has carried his guilt. This guy used humour, good or bad as his safe spot and way to be accepted, and he would feed of people. So the more people reacted either the victim negatively of those around positively, it would egg him on. And that's where it was weird. I never reacted to him in the moment, just took it, didnt fight and cried at home. But he persisted and he tormented me.

So many, many years later, we meet. The last time I saw him I was 12. We sat and we chatted and we laughed and joked and then he stopped. And with all seriouness, apologized again and asked for my forgiveness for his actions. Now I know that forgiveness is a lot about me an dthe state of my heart na dit i sa lot about bringing freedom to me so taht I do not live in bitterness, anger and resentment. And on that basis, I have conciously made the choice to forgive many people for many things. It still hurts at times, I'm not going to lie but it is by far the better course to go.

However, last night I was privileged enough to be able to witness the power of my forgiveness on the life of one who was and is truly repentant. I was given the rare treat and privilege to see the freedom that my choice to forgive brought to this life, i was privileged to see the impact my forgiveness had on the life of another.