Sunday, July 5, 2009
love
I'm starting to wonder if there is a second chance for me. I think I have near given up hope of my knight coming to to steal my heart after fighting off dragons. It seems to me that this, and any ensuing children that my heart so desperately has longed for, is not to be for me. Time to give up the fairytale and reconcile myself to a life alone.
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Wow, do I ever know how you're feeling! I felt that way for a loooong time, thinking I was destined to be alone. But I am so thankful for that time now, looking back. God used it to teach me that my deepest longings will never be fulfilled by any fallible human being. Only God can truly quench the desires of our hearts, perfectly, fully, and without ever failing us. I'm so glad He showed me that before Rien and I got married. Otherwise I might have placed unrealistic expectations on him, left him to feel inadequate, and ended up feeling frustrated and disappointed, and wondering if I married the wrong man. But God has brought us together, not so that each of our needs would be met, but so that we can serve and glorify Him in our life together. The only way we can really glorify Him is to submit to His plan and be obedient, regardless of whether we are single or in a relationship. And ya know, it wasn't until I really gave in to that, that He brought Rien into my life. He needed to break me first and keep me looking upward, not outward. I don't know what God has in store for your immediate future. But I encourage you to embrace this time for what it is, and remain open to God's work in your heart, preparing you for whatever lies ahead. He knows what He's doing! :)
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Love,
J