pain

I hae decided that pain shoudl not exist. People are far too precious for pain. Their hearts are treasures that should not have to experience it. It is horrible and it should not be. Today I had a conversation with a long time friend that I had lost contact with and we have just recently reconnected. He struggles and to be honest I don't think he even knows what he struggles with. But he is of the mindset that he got in this himself so he will get himself out. So I need to respect that but it is terribly hard to sit back with my hands tied and watch him writhe in pain. Its a horrible feeling to sit back and watch as a friend. helpless to help. I know the value of lessons learned. I understand the wisdom that comes with learning from consequences and to sit back and watch my friend struggle, I know how it feels when a heart breaks. So much of me hurts, aches and wants to spare him. I want to take the consequences on myself so that he would not have to suffer. And yet I can do nothing but sit back and watch as he makes his choices and learns his lessons. And he does not even realize the depth of my care and figures that I am in this for something. That's how life has shaped him, so that he cannot trust someone's care without suspicion. He cannot trust that someone would care simply because they care. A little jaded? Yez! but that's what his life taught him, and I wish so much that the person I know lives deeper inside his heart would have the chance to shine, and that this friend could experience healing from pain his pain. Dont' we all deserve that? So the only thing that remains for me to do is to pray that someway he will experience his healing and freedom. And although I phrase it that way, I expect that that is the most powerful gift I could give to him anyway........