Easter...blessings and curses?

I wasn't sure exactly what to title this post so I am writing first and then maybe a title will come. Easter I was blessed. I was given a no expenses trip to stay at my girlfriends place. She was going to cover my expenses to travel up to her place and we were going to stay with her. My boys were going to be able to hang with her same aged kids and my daughter was going to be able to have little toddlers to "mother." It was a trip we were all looking forward to it. It wasn't to be a long trip but it was definitely anticipated. We got there and we had a wonderful time. My boys went dirt biking I got to relax and spend some time in some wonderful company. The Easter bunny came and a good time was had by all.

And then we left. It was a long trip back, the weather was crazy...hail, sun, rain, and the temperature was bobbing all over the place. I was really looking forward to sitting and unwinding.

We got home and all appeared normal. I went into the kitchen and started to settle in. And I noticed the computer tower had been moved and pulled out from under the desk. I looked over to the desk and there was no monitor and no keyboard. It took me three different times of looking at this situation to really realize what had happened. We had been robbed.

Immediately we started to look around at the rest of the house. The kids went to their rooms to see what was there and what wasn't. I continued to look around. Panic ensued and everyone started to race around from here to there as I tried to figure out what to do. I called the cops and while we waited the kids kept scattering trying to figure out what was gone. I found where they had broken in. I started to walk around the house. Every room had be ransacked, all the drawers pulled out and upended clothes strewn everywhere. Everything had been touched and everything of value that could be carried out was. The kids lost some precious precious items, their baptism and birth jewelery,their baptism jewelery, their Grad jewelery (in Jeff's case), their Ipods and docks. I lost all my jewelery, some that was given to me as a child. My first every ring, my wedding set, my grad ring and various other jewelery that was given to me on various occasions. Our electronics, the kids Wii system, our camcorder.....and that's only a start, that's the obvious things.

And we are all traumatized. None of us could stay here last night. The kids went to their dads and I busied myself. It was not a fun coming home to.

In trying to process all of this, a lot of various thoughts come to mind. One the violation. That's the obvious one for sure. But there are many others. I remember saying to someone, yes the things that were taken were "things" but for my kids it doesn't fall out that way. I'm a single mom, I don't have nor do I make a ton of money. The things that were taken from us, maybe other families would write it off as they could replace most of it. But that's not the case for me. I saved and saved for those things that my kids had. It was not simply a casual gift for them. Those gifts came at a cost of sacrifice on my part, to try and give them some things that their friends had, so they didn't feel so stupid or embarrassed to have friends over. I can offer so little. My kids don't go to summer camp, nor have they had a vacation, they don't get a ton of lessons in a ton of things. So our few precious items were just that...precious items. That are now gone. And I have no means to replace them.

I am looking hard for the Easter blessing in this.....so far I am not seeing one.

Some of you that are closer to me know of some other things that are going on in my life. This is so NOT what I needed on top of everything else.

And I am still desperately looking here for my Easter blessing......
Posted by Kristie at 1:14 PM