So this week has been a week of testing and it has left me with a myriad of thoughts and ponderings floating around in my head. This week seemed an echo of some things that I have lived for a number of years. Things that had caused a lot of destruction in my life and those around me.
I heard a sermon once, that stated that God will sometimes bring us through a desert multiple times to enable us to learn exactly the things He has for us to learn. And as I sit thinking back on the events of this week, this concept came back to me. And I wondered if this echo was to gauge my growth.
Don't get me wrong, this was not an easy experience for me to walk through. I screamed, I kicked, I cried, I yelled, I swore. I was very, very upset, hurt, and angered. And then I emailed my girls and phoned a couple of me. And they talked me down. And then I went through everything and picked it apart.
Picked apart the lies from the truth (there was no truth). I sat and picked apart every lie and found the truth of every situation. I then told myself the truth and held onto it. And every time this situation comes into my mind, I rehearse the truth again.
Taking captive of your thoughts, standing firm on the truth and yet.....
This has opened a whole host of questions that I ponder...which you can find in xistential girl...
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