So, I'm sitting here looking around my house. MY house, but the house THEY were in. Today is therapy day for the kids. Hopefully, we can go back to sleeping in their rooms after today. OEI is a really good thing and I am hoping that the kids can focus on what happened and clear it. I am also hoping that the change in bedrooms will also help. But here's the thing, it feels that the entire house is violated. Which for me means a complete gutting and purging and rearranging. So this weekend is starting with painting Missy's room and rearranging mine. Going through boxes and assortments of things, and realizing what really is of value.
In an earlier post, I had written about looking for blessings in all this. Maybe this is one....I don't know. What I do know is that it feels a lot like work and it feels really hard and sad. It also feels somehow wrong that I am "forced" to go through my belongings and decide what I want and what I don't want, what is valuable and what isn't. Granted, I had already felt like doing that, but this presses it home so much more. Because whereas I felt like a spring clean up, now I feel like a gutting.
So here's to some gutting/cleaning/purging/new home (hopefully) today....
My heart and prayers go out to you and your children, may you find peace and security in God's love! Blessings to you, your children and your home.
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