Happy Happy Joy Joy

I know I keep referencing my year my life etc etc and how hard it is but that's the truth and then when I manage to accomplish things, it astounds me. I was working on thesis last night and a g/f last night popped online and told me our grades for the Spring Semester were up. My response? Oh Dear. And to tell the truth, I dreaded this. I didn't want to check and I have refused checking to see if they were posted. I was scared that I would get booted out of the program because my grades were not up to par. See, I have to maintain a B average minimum and some of these courses have been darn hard and put on top of that, ny year. I have been quite anxious.

So I sucked it up and I checked and its time to celebrate very soon...for you see. I got an A+, an A, and two A-. And then I cried and cried and cried and sat in shock and still sit in shock. I found my brother and told him and guess what? I think I finally have the brother who is protective of me and proud of me, the one that I have wanted since I was a little girl. It doe make me wonder what I would be capable of if I didn't have to struggle all the time.....

And then I did one more thing, I revealed my blog to my brother and sister in law. This is a huge risk for I try to be authentic here and that means he has insight into my heart, which means he has the potential to take this information to the other parts of my family where it will be used against me. Hard thing to do and yet if want the relationship wth my brother should I not be authentic with him? He has a beautiful wife whom I am falling more and more in love with as I get to know her. He picked a good'un (although I think she did the picking here....). Thank you Janice.

And Michelle, my bro loves the blog pic, it reminds him of when I was a little girl, kudos to you and I thought I would pass that on.....