reflection

Some things occurred over the past week which has left me living the past week on tenterhooks. And today I got some news that drastically affects my life. As I sit here digesting the news, I stop and reflect. From receiving the news, I went to pick up Jamie. I held him tighter and hugged him closer today. Missy is still at school and then Jeff came home. And I too held the boy turning man a little tighter and whispered I love you. I sit here typing, reflecting and to be honest with tears threatening to fall. Oops one fell. So I sit and ponder. We often strive for so much in life. I strive to provide my kids with the "things" that other kids have so they won't feel left out for I know how devastating that feeling can be to a child. And yet, when it all boils down to it and I sit here and reflect on this news, material things have taken a backseat. I'm not thinking of those things as I sit here and type and hear my precious 7 year olds voice reading out loud. As I  glance over and see my 14 year old, having done his homework, playing on his computer. I stare out my back door and remember what is important. And it si:

a 7 year olds arms wrapped tight around my neck in a koala cuddle
a 14 year olds voice cracking as he enters manhood.
upturned faces looking for a kiss from mama.
the sparkle of pride in the young eyes of those reaching achievement on homework
the mischevous grin of a 14 year old coaching a 7 year old to do what he wont dare
the little girl voice raging at me for having to practice one more time
the golden hair that the sun trying to peek through glints off  of
the peaceful rhythmic breathing of a child asleep as long lashes brush rosy cheeks
boys giggling at farting
girls squealing at boys giggling at farting

these are just what im currently experiencing in these few moments that I type to you

so...

if you have been so lucky with being loaned the treasure of a little one

despite the frustration that occurs with raising them
despite how they seem to unknowingly know how to push your buttons

hug them a little tighter tonight
hold them closer
cuddle them longer

for you never know if and when you and they may be ripped apart.

It isnt easy parenting children. In fact it is an experience that comes with levels of angst and frustration and anger that is unparalleled. And yet it also comes with unconditional love where once upon a time, you get to feel like that superhero that you dreamed of being when you were a child. For to a child's eyes, you truly are their superhero.

love on them today and thank the Lord for you precious gifts.