things that make you go hmm

Today seemed to be a night of experiencing a bit of grief. I was out with my church and we are blessed enough to be on grounds taht allow us to have campfires the odd time. So tonight we sat around the campfire and worshipped for two hours. The worship was good for my soul. The kids were with me and they bounded around the campfire, putting sticks in and stirring the fire. And then as my son and daughter bounced away, I was filled with such grief watching them, knowing everything that I have denied them from my choice to split. talk about a smack in the face for this mom. They may never know campfires and hunting for marshmallow sticks and hunting out wood for the campfire, and tenting it in the rain. Stupid thing is? when I was married we had all that. and i lost it