Mishmash

It's thursday a day to honor my clients, for today saw deep wounds and the courage it took to go there.
However, my thoughts run to a different vein today....two to be precise.

Modelling:

and I don't mean the fashion industry kind. I mean the kind we do as we parent, that our children watch and learn how to be and how to cope and how to live.

when I reflect back, I think on the things that were modelled to me. Unfortunately these havent been good things and so it is a fight to break free form. They become so ingrained in us that a lot of the time we dont' even realize what it is we are doing. The coping skills that were modelled to me were unhealthy at best and I find myself using them as my first method of coping until I catch myself.

Then my thoughts turned to my own children and the things that I have modelled to them and it became very clear to me that I need to apologize to them and to try to teach them better. Unforutnately that can be hard to do when you are in the midst of sorting your own stuff out. So that means I need to do double duty to ensure that my children are equipped with the tools that they need.

As per the other random things travelling through my  mind, I am not sure that they are worth mentioning....