Return to Pooh Corner

It's a Kenny Loggins song. I love it. As does Jeff. It makes me cry. Most things do, this should come as no surprise. And now it makes me  cry even more. .

You see, Jeff and I were driving the other day and he said to me, "Mom, is this song suppposed to remind you of your childhood?"

"Yes Jeff, why?"

"Oh good, cuz it males me think that."

Because you see my son is apparently grown now and has long since past childhood, being 14 and all.

And that is what made me sad. My son remembers his childhood, apparently with longing. I guess things are too difficult for him as he matures and that leaves him wishing for simpler days and simpler times. I wish I could ease things for him. I know this is difficult for him as he still has not come to terms with the split between his father and I. And I expect that he sits and longs for the time when in his mind, his world was right. This makes me sad, for now I cry for two reasons when I hear this song.

I know all too well hard times suck. And its hard thats why they are called hard times. And sometimes it feels like the difficulty is going to swallow you up and you can't breathe let alone see your way out.

I also know that when you get through it, it does make for a stronger individual and it does reflect on your self-confidence knowing that you got through it. I know this will shape him into becoming a man. I hope I have given him the proper tools to do so.

And so, as I listen to Return to Pooh Corner, I cry. I cry for my childhood, and I cry for my son's childhood and I cry for my son turning man.