So......many situations have cropped up and I'm not sure what to do with it all. I have been told more times than i can count how strong i am and yet.........i feel so fragile. In fact, i had an instance today with someone which confirmed how fragile i really feel. I was in a disagreement with a friend and they said something which hurt deeply and i realized how fragile i really am. as we proceeded to discuss, i laid out exactly how hurt and vulnerable i really feel. but others see in me strength. so whats the reality here?
is it that i feel weak and i am weak but God is the strength that others see? I will argue with people on this as I just simply don't understand. what i do know is how much i hurt, what i do know is how overwhelemed i get, what i do know is how often i cry cuz it feels like i cannot go on? is that strength? or is that weakness? it feels weak. I feel fragile....like i will fall apart any moment. so what is it that others see when they say im strong?
i know this and only this.....i am here by the grace of God, there is no way I could live htis life if it were not for His hand upon it. i would not be here but by the grace of God so maybe when next you see me and you think im strong..........remember im just a little girl with big dreams who falls apart more than you know and im only here because of him.
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