Looks can be decieving

I must say it certainly is an interesting dilemna.  I guess on some level, I don't look like I am an intelligent person. And yes I know for a fact that I am. And even if I didn't know it, the evidence is overwhelming and really cannot be disputed. However, by all appearances, people treat me as if I am just your run of the mill person. I find that it certainly can be frustrating at times, for people underestimate me and do not take me seriously about things that I know both intellectually and intuitively. I am not the type of person to flaunt something like that but if you were to engage me in conversation of meaning, then you would find that I am a highly intelligent person.

I am puzzled by this. Is it that I look like I'm a bimbo? or is it because I refuse to flaunt my intelligence? It certainly creates some interesting interpersonal dynamics. And to be truthful, I am not entirely sure what to do with this except for what I am doing........which really is nothing. I have enough grace for others to allow them whatever it is that they need, be it dismissive of my intelligence, be it the need for them to be right...whatever it is, I have enough grace for others that I let it go and do not make an issue of it.

But lately it seems to be grating on me. And perhaps that i s because my own identity is undergoing and upheaval right now. I find that I am starting to step into and walk in who I am meant to be. The person that I see that to be is elegant, classy and a professional. One who leaves ripples of impact behind. One who has wisdom and intuition and uses that for the healing of others. Perhaps that is why this is an issue for me right now, because I see some of who I am becoming and yet I am still surrounded by people who do not seem to take me seriously. It's almost like, they want to keep me locked into this place where they are comfortable with me being. But I myself am longer comfortable in those positions as I see myself as moving and stepping into a portion of who i was created to be.

It was once said to me that relationships can only remain as they are for a period of about 2 to 3 years, for after that people evolve into something different. But not everyone can accepts that. And so what I am finding, is that some are getting left behind. As I move further up and further in to becoming me, i find that there are some people in my life that are getting left behind and some are going to be left behind. That sounds harsh, and it's not. It simply is a natural evolution to change. As I step more fully into who i am, my interests will change and my tastes will change. That will entail that there will be relationships that fall by the wayside. It's different, it's interesting, it's comfortable and yet it's uncomfortable and I am not yet convinced