Thursday, June 4, 2009

pondering and growing

So I know i must be growing cuz im pondering and when i ponder I tend to grow. so here's the latest. i have been reflecting on life and my life specifically and I was remembering things that I said to my father predominately and how it infuriated him. And yet there was no reason for his infuriation. I remember moments of self refleciton that were perhaps wise beyond my years and his ensuing fury at that. It made no sense til this A-HA moment. I wonder if my self reflection perhaps made my dad feel inferior. I wonder if in light of the things that I was sharing with him about my insights into myself made him feel dumb. but that stems from his own lack of self esteem and if thats the case........wow.......if ppl dont want to or are scared to heal for themselves then do it for those around you as our self esteem issues can cause others so much damage. we act out of our wounding and yet here is a prime example of that........ouch!

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