a burdened heart

So today i am writing more of my thesis, and in that I am dealing with trauma as my subject matter, I find my thoughts and my heart turning toward those in my life. So so many of the ones that I consider dear to me have recently undergone or are undergoing some form of trauma and my heart breaks for you. Many times, I sit and think on you guys and I cry for the pain that I know you are suffering. I know pain in an intimate way, and I know how overwhelmimg it can be and how hard to come out from under. So many times, I wish I was with each one of you, in order to provide love and support in even a small way. When I read your stories, words fail me and i find that I cannot express the depth of my hurting alongside you and the depth of my desire to help in whatever way I can.

Many of you are courageous individuals whom I admire wholeheartedly. You have shown such strength and such grace and poise in the midst of so so much, As I am writing this, many names are running through my head, far far too many to begin to list. All of you have been an inspiration to me at one time or another for I know some of the depth of struggles that you have endured and the authentic resiliance that you show as you forge through one millisecond by one millisecond at times, is truly an inspiration to me.

And so thank you, thank you for being who you are, thank you for sharing a small part of your heart with me, thank you for your honestly in your trials, and to all of you I dedicate my career. I wish to heaven that I could have been there to aid you but in lieu of that as I go forth in my career, I will remember the strength that each one of you has shown and I will do my best to honour you by pouring into those who enter my office what I wish to have poured inot your hearts.

Thank you my dear friends for being my inspiration....